Rebuilding, Embodying Rest and Taking Up Space!

My loves, oh how I've missed this podcast! It's been a while  and I hope you are all well. 

In this episode I share with you what's been going on in the past year and a half, how important truly embodying rest is and how we need to take up space. 

I speak a bit on my yoga practice, being a Projector in Human Design and the 6th and 12th Houses in Astrology. 

Chapters

• 0:00 What's been going on
• 12:47 Taking up space

Transcript

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hi my loves welcome back to my podcast to those who are listening and those who are watching on youtube welcome i am simone the moon goddess so it's been a while i really needed to just pull back rebuild my solid foundations before tackling the podcast and all the other projects that i want to work on and to expand my community and to grow recently i saw a tweet and it spoke about burnout and how it takes three to five years to get over burnout and that resonated so much i feel like when i first started my youtube and i started really expanding the work that i do and growing this community i was going gun hole like i had all this energy i was coming off the back of a really solid yoga practice very disciplined very dis very consistent and as the time went on i let go of my practice i lost track of my spiritual practices and disciplines and i feel as if those were so much a part of giving me the energy to be able to channel to be able to use my gifts the way that i do two years ago the world really changed and i feel as if i was absorbing so much of the energy that the world was experiencing and i would try to serve but i was serving on e on empty on an empty gas tank really recently i've been reading a lot about how it's so important to strengthen your six house now this is a bit of astrology and your sixth house is your routines your daily routines your discipline your consistency you can think about it in terms of virgo because virgo would be the natural ruler of the sixth house so i've been really working on strengthening my sixth house rebuilding my spiritual practices and disciplines you know especially with my youtube channel there was a lot of start stop stop start start stop and this is largely based on the fact that i would take a rest feel like myself again or mostly like myself again and then i would go off try to serve or try to do the most really and i would end up back at square one i was just putting out energy but i was not allowing my energy to[Music] i was not allowing my energy to turn and to bubble up and to flow through my body because again i had no spiritual practice aside from meditation but i wasn't moving my body the other thing is too that in discovering that i'm a projector this is no human design for those who are for those of you who are familiar with human design i'm a projector and projectors do not create their own energy so to speak now this is making i'm speaking of very basic terms but we are not like generators and manifesting generators those people who can go and go and go projectors need a lot of rest projectors aren't supposed to work work work in the way how society believes that productivity works we're not been 95 people we need to work in bursts like short bursts you know and that might look different for different projectors but we need to[Music] put more energy into the things that we love in the things that will help to build us spiritually and creatively so i would spend hours you know recording editing and i want to do the podcasts and i need to do a post on instagram and all of these things i was trying to juggle and i was draining myself throughout the entire process so i started my youtube again in march with all intentions of okay this is the year that i'm going to be consistent i'm going to go after all of my goals and you know success and all this and life happened and i needed to take a break again and i felt defeated and i felt frustrated myself but also i realized that when i do need to take a break when my guides tell me it's time to take a break the part of me exhausting myself and taking a break was feeling guilty about taking a break so where i was supposed to be resting and enjoying that rest and doing the things that i loved and immersing myself in the energy of rest i was fighting it mentally by feeling as if i was letting down myself or i was being unproductive or missing out on something or you know other people growing and i need to i need to get up and work otherwise i won't grow all of these things i was wrangling with and exhausting myself in the process so i went back to my mat i let my eagle rest i'm not one to say that you can't have a big ego or it's bad to have a big eagle we need to have a big eagle because your ego is your son imagine if the sun was tiny imagine if the sun was humble what life would grow without the sun the sun is massive our ego needs to be massive but healthy and balanced our ego stops us from following the crowd our ego sets us on our own path so i dropped the part of me that was trying to control and trying to wrangle and feeling as if i let go it meant that i wouldn't achieve and i wouldn't succeed i mean was i achieving and succeeding when it was trying to control no i was just exhausting myself so as i was saying i got back on the mat and i thought about you know when i was reading lots of astrology posts on how it's so important to have a solid six house especially if you have a lot going on in your 12th house and they have a stellium in the 12th house for those who understand astrology i have four planets in the twelfth house twelfth house can feel a little bit heavy is considered the house of isolation and loss and and expenses and it's your subconscious it's the spiritual realm it's your ancestors the 12th house is a beautiful house and though some people might look at you like wow doom and gloom you have all of that happening in your 12th house it's actually a power powerhouse once you figure it out what works for you how to balance it and many times in order to balance it it means that you need to work with your sixth house the house opposite so i got back on the mat and i started to build a solid foundation again i did my vinyasa yoga i worked on my kundalini yoga and in my mind i said if my sixth house is solid then i can then start building on top of that if i can have a routine with my spiritual work then it means that my physical work has a solid foundation to stand upon and that's what i've been doing with felt guilt without force without trying to get up and go when my body my mind my spirit was saying to take a break and to rest so i feel a lot more grounded and now i feel like when i start again there will be a sense of consistency and i'm not going to drain myself by trying to do everything i'm a projector and i embrace that energy it means that i can work smart and not hard and that can work for me so it's been two years and a bit since i've posted a new podcast episode i miss this people have been so supportive of this platform and i hear all the time how my voice is so soothing and how my voice has been able to heal migraines and how i should do voiceover work and all of this and it just really drove the point that my podcast is a really important part of who i am and my service to the collective and all that i do so it had to come back i had to come back i never gave up on it but i'm so grateful to record this first episode no as i talk about training myself and and working smart not hard it means not offering a podcast episode every day it means finding a structure that works for me and i'm still working on that but maybe the podcast will be a little more about me talking about things like burnout and astrology and different insights and downloads that's come to me thrown in with a bit of channeling messages for you guys so now that i've laid the platform the groundwork for what i really want to talk about today which is taking up space being big in your space and what does that mean what does that look like taking that space and being big in your space for me it looks like living unapologetically i remember a couple weeks back i was within the group dynamic and i remember saying to somebody stop apologizing every time you say something every time you feel as if you need to express yourself you know we a lot of us we do it without even really thinking about it when it's our time to speak when it's our time to express ourselves we might preface it with a an apology sorry but this is how i feel or let me just say one more thing why are we apologizing take up space it also makes me think about when we need help and we approach a friend or family member or somebody you know someone we love again we'll say sorry sorry for asking sorry for needing help why are we apologizing for needing help we all need help at some point and many times those who find it hard to ask for help are those who are so used to giving and when it's our time to get help we feel as if we need to apologize and make ourselves small for that we will never be sustainable without community and community means that just as much as we give we ask for help unapologetically there's nothing to feel bad about asking for help and i know that many times we say sorry because you know it's almost as if we are giving ourselves a buffer in case the person says no or they might be offended by you asking but anybody who truly loves you and supports you would never be offended by you asking for help start apologizing for having boundaries start apologizing for living for being for existing be big in your space you are an expression of the most high you're an expression of the creator do you know how powerful that makes you you know how big that makes you yeah so those are my thoughts on taking up space and and being big unapologetically when you really stop and you think about the fact that you are an expression of the universe that you are a physical manifestation of what was happening within universe at exactly the point in time when you incarnated in flesh in your physical body you think about that how could you apologize do flowers apologize for being beautiful do bees apologize for buzzing and i know that this might sound very small but truly you need to be big you need to be full we need to have big eagles we need to be our everything how are we not are everything but we want to be everything to somebody else it has to start with us so i feel as if i'm going to end it here i hope that these words support whoever's listening who's ever watching uplifts you and encourages you to take up space and be big you deserve it we deserve it you're here with a purpose you're here with a mission shine on until the next episode my loves be well bye